Episodes
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
465. Self Pity is Not Self Love: Austin, USA, May 16, 2015 (3)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
464. When a Thinking Pattern is Obsolete: Austin, USA, May 16, 2015 (2)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
462. Wanting to Feel Special: Carlsbad, USA, May 25, 2015 (7)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
461. Attachment to Awakening: Carlsbad, USA, May 25, 2015 (6)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
460. Introducing Nondenialism: Carlsbad, USA, May 24, 2015 (5)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
459. The Source of Fear in Consciousness: Carlsbad, USA, May 24, 2015 (4)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
458. What Consciousness Knows and Doesn't Know: Carlsbad, USA, May 23, 2015 (3)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
456. Did I Create My Physical Illness? Carlsbad, USA, May 22, 2015 (1)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
455. Resisting the Inner Child: France, March 29, 2015 (11)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
454. How to Look at Suffering: France, March 29, 2015 (10)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
453. Legal issues in Marriage and Inheritance: France, March 28, 2015 (8)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
452. Understanding Emptiness from Direct Experience: March 28, 2015 (8)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
450. Understanding and Accepting Karma: France, March 27, 2015 (6)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Living with Parkinson's disease, there is fear blocking my heart, keeping the heart open, spiritual concepts can be used incorrectly by the ego, I'm ready to leave my job but practically I can't leave yet.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
449. Men Getting in Touch with Their Feminine Aspects: France, March 26, 2015 (5)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
448. What makes Life Believable: France, March 26, 2015 (4)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
444. Just a Thought: Sebastian, USA, Jan 19, 2015 (10)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Balancing of the books, anger, the dark will always come after the light, money/relationship/intimacy, "it's all a lie", vacuum, subtler levels of energy of the story, Phenomenal perspective is tiny but if you have no other perspective, it is infinite, sex, story making machines, is the true self there during anesthesia? simplicity and beauty, migraine, awakening vs. liberation, become aware of it when you slip into defending, Kali's sword, self-forgiveness, honoring all sides of experiences, courage and trust, feeling of no space, liberation -- just a thought.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
443. The I AM and The I: Sebastian, USA, Jan 18, 2015 (9)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Pain being trapped, migraines, running energy of others, phenomenal freedom, no opposites, perceiving without perceiver, go to the place where you know and not where you think, understanding 'Gaps" when 'you' come back vs. some part of the mind being aware that 'you' were gone while 'you were gone', semantics, breaking habits, I AM presence, it's ordinary, I vs. pure perception, reincarnation.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
442. Third Eye Pain: Sebastian, USA, Jan 18, 2015 (8)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Taking risks, the annihilation that you fear is happening now, love, self-image, body identification, there is nothing lacking where there is emptiness, karma with boss, discernment, connecting to male energy, third eye pain, body reaction to spiritual work, rolfing, wounded warrior must lose potency, you must become your own Guru, fear of karma, everything that comes, goes, no connection between effort and grace.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
441. Unplug Your Mother: Sebastian, USA, Jan 17, 2015 (7)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Collapsing, appreciation, disease of desire, the ordinary isn't boring, desserts, sixth sense, entanglement with mother, dance.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
440. Home is Where the Heart Is: Sebastian, USA, Jan 17, 2015 (6)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Let the character bow down to what you really are, being in the body, hyper-vigilance and control, prevention can be worse than the event, worshipping ourselves/Guru, sexual abuse -- male authority, karma as a cause and effect, past life, infidelity secrets, self-referencing, what is love? anything nameable is transient, awareness aware of itself without the body/mind, nobody goes there but it is known, you have to be taking yourself very seriously in order for an emotional response to persist, love is not real but it is not absent either, finding your power, heart and mind, being lost, not minding and not knowing.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
439. Choosing the Fearful Option: Sebastian, USA, Jan 16, 2015 (5)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Courage, wounded warrior, spiritual arrogance, depression, divine will vs. personal will, a holiday from the shoulds, freedom, what is the world? wisdom to step back, the paradox of self-love, self-dialogue, urgency -- life is dribbling away, only silence can be trusted, what would it look like if it wasn't motivated by fear? openings beyond the mind.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
438. Body Parts Shake During Meditation: Sebastian, USA, Jan 16, 2015 (4)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Body/mind as something within what you are, energetic shaking, nervous system rewiring, heart chakra -- all that is not of love, concepts growing into phenomenal realm, pure consciousness as an idea making machine, connection between a concept and it appearing as real, absoluteness zone, release of fear, finding enjoyment, there is space for truth to show itself by stopping identification, I AM, money/finances.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
437. I Have a Critical Eye: Sebastian, USA, Jan 15, 2015 (3)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Heart vs. mind work, I AM Shiva/Shakti, emptiness and awareness, no solid ground, money, it doesn't have any opposites, control and minimizing chaos, you may need a body to do it! character cannot wake up, what is duty?
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
436. I Need to Feel in Control: Sebastian, USA, Jan 15, 2015 (2)
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Awakening is for the mind, can perception happen without ownership?, devotion in the context of longing, obsessed with myself, fear of the future, collapse of consciousness, gradients of thought, if I'm not doing then who am I? trauma attaching to a character, heart opening.
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
Thursday Jun 13, 2019
I'm not getting it is torture, needing to know is suffering, what are the frames that lead up to the 'me'? seeking keeps the seeker alive.
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
434. Memory Loss and Enlightenment: Carlsbad, USA, November 2, 2014 (5)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
432. Don't Run From Living in the World: Carlsbad, USA, November 1, 2014 (3)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
431. Siddhis are Not significant: Carlsbad, USA, November 1, 2014 (2)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
430. Halloween Satsang: Carlsbad, USA, October 31, 2014 (1)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
429. Satsang is a Tuning Fork: Austin, USA, November 9, 2014 (5)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Introduction: manifesting vs. free will, answers to life's questions, our agreement creates reality, anger -- unsatisfied desire, self love -- courage, satsang as a tuning fork, separation as an energy held in the body, holding onto a higher energy when pulled back into the drama, reflecting truth, intervention as faith, manipulation -- conditional vs. unconditional love. acquiescing to others, going beyond presence, talking from the phenomenal world vs. absolute.
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
428. Men and Women are Different!: Austin, USA, November 9, 2014 (4)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Introduction, what is the ego?, creativity and alcohol, how do you know when to process emotion and when to pull back?, unconditional self love, self pity, Jac living in the world, seeking energy, character refinement without the seeker, get distance from the believability of thought, accidents/destiny, obsessing about relationships, grief, reflection of my old self in my son, paradoxes, some part of you is still enjoying the separation, drop the fantasy.
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
427. Relationships, Desire, and Behavior: Austin, USA, November 8, 2014 (3)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Where does the mind fit into the unfolding of consciousness, it is all play, special relationships, judgments/preference, ego on top of ego, be authentic, dropping desire vs. behaviour, sex, desire for truth, Jac story experience, deep - dark-depression, going through the body, value system on doing and being task-oriented, being efficient without adrenaline.
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
426. What's Possible in Each Paradigm: Austin, USA, November 8, 2014 (2)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Jac introduction, let the 'I AM' be not good enough, fall into the prior, ashram experience, existence itself, don't stop at the non-dual!, flip side of the pain is the juice of the absence of the pain, thyroid -- family tree work, surrender to something external in order to surrender to what you really are, self love, understanding what's not real, explore believability, contrast is delicious, you are not here at all, does stress create a 'You'?, can awareness be aware of itself without the body/mind?, identity itself must go, take Ramana and Papaji off the throne.
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
425. Satsang Introduction: Austin, USA, November 7, 2014 (1)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Only the mind says the stillness is not good enough, it's just story, Jac's story, absolute love underpins it all, dualistic version of love, mind knows right where to hit me, believability of the thought is the problem -- not the content, do you feel not entitled to the peace?, responsibility is the ability to respond, all about trust, take a chance!, need for approval brings pain, acceptance versus fighting for justice, freedom for full expression for every emotion, annoying spiritual advice, fully human, spirituality vs. science, your inner gut is where you figure out what is right for you, love yourself and the sense of not belonging dissolves.
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
423. After Awakening What is Seen: France, May 29, 2014 (10)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
421. Fantasies About How It Should/Could Be: France, May 27, 2014 (8)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
420. Courage, Vulnerability, Doubt: France, May 27, 2014 (7)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
419. A Father and Son Relationship: France, May 26, 2014 (6)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
418. Managing Awakening Practically: France, May 26, 2014 (5)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
417. Energy Twitches the Body during Satsang: France, May 25, 2014 (4)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019