Episodes
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
415. In Mid Conversation Perception Shifts: France, May 24, 2014 (2)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
414. Nothingness Stimulates Fear: France, May 23, 2014 (1)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
413. I Don't Want to Be Wronged: Asheville, NC, USA, May 3, 2014 (10)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
412. Coping with Serious Health Issues: Asheville, NC, USA, May 3, 2014 (9)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
411. Who Makes Up This Shit: Asheville, NC, USA, May 2, 2014 (8)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
410. Essense of Love is Not Phenomenal Love: Asheville, NC, USA, May 2, 2014 (7)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
409. Perceiving Explained and Self Love: Asheville, NC, USA, May 1, 2014 (6)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
408. Experiencing the Void as Vacuum: Asheville, NC, USA, May 1, 2014 (5)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
406. Being OK Without Closure: Asheville, NC, USA, April 30, 2014 (3)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
404. Experiencing Explained : Asheville, NC, USA, April 28, 2014 (1)
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Wednesday Jun 12, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Validation, fragrance of stillness/ unbroken wholeness, just one subject -- even that is imagined, zone where nothing happened is still within consciousness, pure perception -- only the verb -- perceiving, natural state includes the body/form, pure perception can have an outpost of localized perception, filters of contrast come in to allow functioning, pure witnessing is the I AM, life and death -- the ultimate opposites, no reference point, beyond doubt, let there be melting within, primal need for safety, the 'Good' beyond good and bad is not good, trust when intuition is doubted, feel more than think, this moment is infinite -- don't make it linear.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
402. Old Patterns Held in the Body: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 12, 2014 (9)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Humor instead of fear, understanding is greater than meaning, where the viewing point arises from, personal I trying to own the pull, how you think its going to be is not the way!, sensory evidence held at a cellular level, mind is using the body for its own purposes, past life, enlightenment: it's not about getting out -- it's seeing you were never in.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Something shows itself that is prior to an experience that can be described, embodiment, purer than innocence, meditation is useful to manage in the world but it doesn't bring self-realization, frequency with which you pull back from your thoughts, mantras are very useful, changing the diet for the mind, Doubt -- why not have it all?, separation/identity, Nisargadatta, intimacy: domain of the personal I vs. as a consequence in absolute, experiencer is the one who has to die.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
400. A Heart Bursting With Love: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 11, 2014 (7)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
399. Use Herbal Support: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 11, 2014 (6)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
398. Ego Can Die Before Its Maturation: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 10, 2014 (5)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
397. Maturing Out Religious Beliefs: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 10, 2014 (4)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
396. Integrating Enlightenment: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 9, 2014 (3)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
395. An Unusual Life: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 9, 2014 (2)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
394. Subtle Mind Loops: Angel's Rest, MA, USA, July 8, 2014 (1)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
393. Watch the Mind and Break the Rules: Carlsbad, USA, April 13, 2014 (5)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Jac intro, bodywork/rolfing, break the rules, addiction and denial, responsibility is an ability to respond, self-honesty under every level, contraction at work, homeopathy and energy work on your energy field, desire is always associated with an I, total unconditional love for the character, fear in the body that needs to be exposed, ego coming into wholeness, sex without desire running, Heisenberg's principle revisited: Does state of mind in the observer have an impact on the observed object?
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
392. Overwhelm in My Busy Life: Carlsbad, USA, April 13, 2014 (4)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Jac intro: pulling attention back/resting in the natural state, the doing to get into the natural state, grief vs. suffering, discernment and choices, an organic pull towards harmony, diversity making machine, let 'I don't know' be your benchmark, spiritual bypassing, mind is bringing what is known into the personal and that doesn't fit, rolfing/bodywork, overwhelm, incompleteness and not having closure, what would it be to have no motivation stemming from desire.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Jac intro/guided meditation, a sense of 'me' versus a personal 'me', labeling -- concepts -- experiences, labeling of subject-object disappearing and reappearing as your self, a willingness to not let go, taking things personally, family constellations, letting go of self criticism and self doubt, going prior/beneath the blank state.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
390. Body Tension Every Morning: Carlsbad, USA, April 12, 2014 (2)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Jac intro and guided meditation, depression and indifference, when it starts getting destructive at a core level then it is time to leave, consciousness does not need a body/mind to know itself, doubting mind, relationship with money, mantra to stop fighting with the mind, infusing body with frequency of pure consciousness, bodywork for releasing tension in the body, dwelling on unknowns will cripple you.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
389. Jac, Don't You Ever Forget?: Carlsbad, USA, April 11, 2014 (1)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Prior to awareness is playing as the character, sense of you must have value in order to make idea of separation plausible, the idea of "i am my body", consciousness in and of itself and a knowing that does not need body/mind, Courage, a not knowing and a total trusting, energy of what you are comes through love from the other side of love and has no agenda, in the depths of full-on experience is it known that it is not real, devotion flowing, do you forget what you are at any time?
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
388. How To Live Without the Rat Race: Toronto, Canada, April 6, 2014 (5)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Does a rock bottom experience need to happen prior to awakening? protecting the form against certain energies, awakening is for knowing what you already are, functioning in the world while going through the spiritual path, chakras, grabbing a thought/buying into story even when there is a knowing that it is not real, levels of identification, is there just stillness or is there a me/sense of me with the stillness?, energy of fear, me as pure consciousness is learning to be fully human, desire versus yearning, thoughts are energy balls.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Guided meditation, beliefs and believability loops and their impact on the body, re-birthing, subject-object and what dissolves is the object, being ensnared by mind and thoughts, difficult marriage/relationship, finding a lifestyle that supports you, family matters.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
386. I Don't Deserve to Abide in Awareness: Toronto, Canada, April 5, 2014 (3)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Consciousness is prior to existence, guided meditation, some ideas that may have no foundation in any story, love is movement, coming back to satsang because drama is luring you again OR something not being solid yet, being on a roll in life, total acceptance of yourself, fear of dying and losing the chance to know myself, movement of energy in satsang.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Jac intro: nothing needs to be dissolved for truth to show itself, the more attention stays inside the more mind loses its effectiveness in fabricating lies, identification, hanging on to grace to lead you home, process of manifestation from "prior to all of it" to duality, potentiality of pure consciousness, Knowing, non-being that underpins the whole roll out into duality, what happens when the body dies, idea of Karma and balancing the books, doing something loving for yourself, Choice & Free will.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
384. Non Duality Is My New Religion: Toronto, Canada, April 4, 2014 (1)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Jac intro: perception with lenses and pure perception, parenting/right way to rear your child is to listen to your belly, framework of right & wrong, trusting your gut, unconditional love for yourself, Learning disabilities and how to undo them, stepping back to a global perspective, absorbing other people's stuff, default mode network, Choice, consequences and responsibility, innocent fun.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
383. Let Spirituality Be Not Good Enough: St Augustine, USA, Feb 23, 2014 (5)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Understanding experiences, thinking mind & working mind, Self-knowledge, Loveable & capable, formless, Desire, direct path and progressive path, Siddhis, "I am not good enough" belief, Anxiety, Establishing the Observer, Let life start up again, Karma, Ego is the sense of self, Only thing needed is willingness, Rebirthing.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
382. Withdrawing Home: St Augustine, USA, Feb 23, 2014 (4)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Pure Perception, Dualistic Lens, Trust, No controller, Desire, Pain, Surrender, To be chosen is to let go, What's Real and What's Not Real, Prior to Observer, Natural Organic Flow, Desire for Sex, Mind Loop, Awakening to Liberation, Tools for Purification
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
381. My Sense of Purpose: St Augustine, USA, Feb 22, 2014 (3)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
380. It's Between You and God: St Augustine, USA, Feb 22, 2014 (2)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
378. The True Nature of Things : Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 17, 2014 (11)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Direction is clear, uncertainty, consciousness playing, wanting to understand, trusting the natural flow, broad understanding, obsession with stories, building blocks of mind, falling into nothing, fear of failure, self-inquiry.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
"going prior" exercise, wanting to be understood, empathy vs compassion, existence doesn't exist, no mystery, disconnect from the personal, awakening and liberation, embodiment, denying life to the 'I', relationship with money, parenting, fear of living, despair.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
376. How to Have Emotions Without Stories: Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 16, 2014 (9)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Self-sacrifice, connection to the world, anxiety, emotions with root cause, emotions without stories, labeling, discernment, pure love, mind as a tool beyond consciousness, emptiness, cause and effect, emotion running through, desire, criticism, fear of fear, unaccountable.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
375. Going Prior Exercise: Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 16, 2014 (8)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Fear of losing control, story coming to an end, stop running the character, "prior to all of it" guided meditation, desires and preferences, time and space, the matrix, self-love, ownership, fear of mental illness, energy of beauty.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
374. Money Matters: Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 15, 2014 (7)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Natural state, prior to natural state, existence, prior to consciousness, money, non-existence, personal "I", existential fear, sex-safety-money and spiritual conditioning.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
373. Prior to Consciousness Exercise: Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 15 (6)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
“prior to consciousness” guided meditation, questions to consider and discussion, jac's theory on a capacity when consciousness collapses, insufficient nurturing.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
372. Chatting with Jac: Findhorn, Jan 14, 2014 (5)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
The personal self, intuition, attachment, trap door, surrender and trust, beyond all of it, an echo, time, jac's experience, self-image.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
371. Science and Enlightenment: Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 14, 2014 (4)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Physiological events with enlightenment, self-referencing, frequencies, prior to consciousness, echo of knowing, migraine, managing identity in the world, owning my masculine side, self-love, intention.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
370. The Path of Beauty: Findhorn, Scotland, Jan 13, 2014 (3)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Frequency of beauty, attachment to beauty, fear, self-love, preferences and desires, sleeping through life, values and rules, mind as the liar, sexual relationship, sugar addiction.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
369. Anger and Conflict: Findhorn, Jan 13, 2014 (2)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Layers of perception, space and time, past lives, taking on energy of others, frequency of anger, impatience, constantly talking in mind, traumas, anxiety and fear.
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
368. Wills and Inheritance: Findhorn, Jan 12, 2014 (1)
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
Tuesday Jun 11, 2019
taking attention away from mind, micro and macro, self-reference, relationship with power, favorites and inheritance, conditioning around wills, relationships, ego and enlightenment, pulling attention back
Sunday Jun 09, 2019
Sunday Jun 09, 2019
Self Love, Short-circuits, thinking mind and working mind, Music as a spiritual practice, Art, Spiritual Practice, suffering, does God exist?, Jac's path.
Sunday Jun 09, 2019
Sunday Jun 09, 2019
Taking things personally, balance and well-being, “knowing” outside of all of it, mind playing catchup, other dimensions, life cycle of ego, karmic debt, addiction to thoughts, Desires, avoidance, existential fear, natural state, emptiness, prior to consciousness, Innate knowing, pointing to prior, reaction to waiting.